Hey!

Happy Mother’s Day 2013

I was born to Cora Christian in Fairbanks, Alaska in 1977.
Five months later, I was given to a caucasian family. My new mother was Karan Ramsay.

To Cora: I never met you. I was only told my health was difficult as a baby. Because of your love, you and my father(James Abraham Christian Sr – I was the only boy born to them) decided to put me up for adoption. For awhile I didn’t understand but I now know I was meant to go places and experience life differently than you did.

I only talked to you a handful of times since I found a way to be in contact with you in 1998. It was awkward to be called “baby” because I wasn’t one and I was never with you much after I was born. However, I did understand it! And that told me that you truly never stopped thinking of and loving me since I was created! So that gives me a feeling of care and love!!! We never were to meet. You passed on a few years later along with my father. My heart does have that sadness that I never got to meet you. But what I have is the knowledge that you gave me life and I have sisters who I have yet to meet. But our contact on Facebook is good for now.

Genesis 21:1-3
Now the LORD was gracious to Sarah as he had said, and the LORD did for Sarah what he had promised. Sarah became pregnant and bore a son to Abraham in his old age, at the very time God had promised him. Abraham gave the name Isaac to the son Sarah bore him.

God bless your lovely soul, mommy!!!
– your son, James Abraham Christian JR

To Karen: After I was born, I was a very sick baby. After five months of being passed from one family to another(so ill), I found you. And God began us as mother and son. I recall a happy childhood. I had you, daddy(Roland), Jennifer & Larry. Also, WooWoo(dog), Sweepea(cat), Madaline(cat), Amanda(cat), Peanut(cat), Ivy(cat) & Murphy(cat). I will always cherish this full set of loved ones. You were our backbone and I recall how you were a great mother!!!

It was unfortunate that due to some mental illness and addiction on us kids that we fell apart at times. But we got back together and we stayed strong. However, it was not to remain.

My last e-mail to you was ferocious. I spewed lies and poison that affirmed my pain. I have to live with this sad guilt for the rest of my life. And I need to! Even though we had a rough relationship for years(after my childhood), I needed to learn to let go and not to give in to anger and resentment.

Now you are no longer speaking to me. But to handle this hard fact, I pray time-after-time to stay in hope and to want you to live happily. I have no idea what is going on with you(since 2007).

I still love you. I miss you. For that, I do pray for good health and living for you, Jennifer, Christopher, Larry and our girl, Kristine!

Matthew 15:4-6
For God said, ‘Honor your father and mother’ and ‘Anyone who curses his father or mother must be put to death.’ But you say that if a man says to his father or mother, ‘Whatever help you might otherwise have received from me is a gift devoted to God,’ he is not to ‘honor his father ‘ with it. Thus you nullify the word of God for the sake of your tradition.

Ephesians 6:1-3
Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right. “Honor your father and mother”–which is the first commandment with a promise– “that it may go well with you and that you may enjoy long life on the earth.”

I love you,
Your son,
James Christian Ramsay

God bless you who read this.
Know that family is healthy if you remain with them!

- James Christian Jr

People often say that mothers are the best teachers in the world. Over the years, I have come to know that it couldn’t be truer. Thanks for being the best mother and teacher in the whole world. Happy Birthday my dearest mommy!


Darkness & Hate!!!

Posted: May 6, 2013 in Uncategorized

Hey,

I have to stop at moments and realize there is GOD!!!! I can’t handle the pain in this world all by myself and I have to know when to relax,lift up my head and pray! I may have been through much, but there are others who did so too AND much worse! By know this… I can be there for another person and know I am going to be alright.

I got into a heated discussion with a good friend and we broke our contact. Even though this is the result, I am not in regret for what I said. I pray for his future to be filled with hope, love and success!!! I will miss you, my Daniel.

- James Christian Jr

“Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that.”
― Martin Luther King Jr., A Testament of Hope: The Essential Writings and Speechesimages

Posting….. SOMETHING!!!

Posted: April 28, 2013 in Uncategorized

Ok!

I am just here posting something. So here it goes!!

I have a migraine and taking more pain relievers then usual. Wny? Because my teeth are breaking!!! My insurance is gone so I have to get back to Public Assistance to recertify for my befits!!!

I am in an outpatient program 5 days a week in the AM’s and this should help me get my benefits since they are now requiring me to be in a program! So there’s that!

My main goal this week is P.A.!!!

Also, I have skin issues!! So I will put toothepaste on some areas that need drying out!! I look a bit ferocious!!!

AND my hair is thinning!!!

I feel ugly. I hate taking photos. So how can I get over this?????Photo on 4-28-13 at 9.45 PM

God bless!!!

- James Christian Jr

Relationships: Issues

Posted: April 23, 2013 in Uncategorized

Hey,

There is a good friend in NYC that I love. Met him in 2011 via Facebook then in person.
Lately, there has been some turmoil between us. Mostly all my doing! But it’s taught me how I really am selfish and self-centered. That part came up over a week ago.

I need people in my life who are real and not superficial. Yeah, having good times are good. But sometimes I need to hear that word of truth that cuts to my heart! I need to learn humility. I need to grow up more! And this is something I know will always be the need!

So I am trying to get back to my fellowships I have been involved with for a long time. I let some go. But I do need to get back to my friends!! I cannot exist alone. No matter what is happening in my life, I need support. And I need to be about giving support too!!!

Be well,
James Christian Jr

Change: My View

Posted: April 16, 2013 in Uncategorized

Hey,

I am in a new outpatient program required by Public Assistance. It seems I am no longer on Homebound(no programs required). Well…. I need a program. And I am ready. Hopefully, this is a step towards a full-time job!!!

Ok. Been having some good groups!!

Change. It has to happen for me to continue to grow. I need to work to become a better person to be useful in this world. Yeah, I need better things but I feel I need to be about my fellow man too!! It goes together if I am to feel fullfulled!!!

Ok! That’s what I have for now!

- James Christian Jr

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My Damn Channel: Mark Malkoff

Posted: March 25, 2013 in Uncategorized

Today, I am helping doing a shoot for a good friend, Mark Malkoff. It’s a funny art gallery story!!

See it on his Youtube Channel: http://www.youtube.com/markmalkoff

Or at My Damn Channel: http://www.mydamnchannel.com/

Enjoy and be amused as I always am!!!!

- James Christian Jr

One of Mark’s challenges was living his bathroom for a week!!!
See it.


Upcoming Interview….

Posted: February 17, 2013 in Uncategorized

Hey!!

I have a facebook friend in California I find interesting!! So I’ll get an interview up in a few days!!!! A photo of him below!! More to come!!

- James Christian

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